Jeremy’s Blog

So, Ruzena’s computer is Broked … Expect her to be pretty much absent from everything until sometime next week.

This makes me sad, because I probably won’t get to talk to her hardly at all, until next week. Except during the usual phone times.

If I see or hear one more person say something along the lines of “PHP is not suitable for enterprise development” with absolutely nothing to back this claim up, one more time … I think I’m going to have multiple aneurysms and the pressure that will build up in my frontal lobe will cause a massive explosion capable of sending skull fragments careening through solid titanium.

This is ridiculous, people. If you’re going to say something so absurd, at least have the common courtesy to come up with something to back it up with. So people like me aren’t consistently smashing our faces against nearby hard objects in an attempt to erase the stupidity you just injected into our minds.

I would appreciate it. Thanks.

Sorry to upstage you, my dear.

In case anyone hadn’t noticed, Ruzena’s become an author on this blog now. *points to the title* Yeah … See?

The specific information on the sidebar (At a glance … and Disclaimer) have been temporarily removed. Disclaimer probably won’t see a return due to the fact that it’s largely unnecessary, now. We’ll probably update the “at a glance” info so that it’s not just specifically about me, soon.

Anyway, you may now return to your regularly scheduled blog…cast?

It’s amazing how easily twelve days can slip away without you hardly even noticing. Quite a lot has happened over the last twelve days … Some of which has left me with a sour taste in my mouth, especially as related to my job. But, I won’t go there. That horse has been beat to death, just in the past day, and I’m frankly sick of talking about it.

On the brighter side of things, the 18th was a very significant day. For reasons I won’t explain, I won’t tell you why, but there are a few people out there that know why this day is special to me.

As far as my personal life goes, I’ve been very happy. I have no reason not to be happy, personally. We’re still dealing with a lack of cash, but that issue should resolve itself, next month. Hopefully, anyway … If all the cards fall in our favor. I’m expecting two things to happen that will (quite literally) screw us, on the financial front, but I’m trying to be as optimistic as possible, as much as logic tells me that I’m about to get walked over again. But, we’ll manage. We always do (have to).

There are currently far too many variables. Being a person who works in logic all the time (programmer), I often relate life-issues to logical structures. At present time, there are too many variables, and not enough constants. At least there’s one constant I always know will be there, and I can’t thank her enough for all she’s done for me. I love you, sweetie.

I hope I’m wrong about all the variables. I’ve already formed an opinion or assumption about most of them, and I’m not liking what I’m seeing. But, I’ll work through it until I just can’t take the crap anymore, or I’m forcibly removed from the program. I just hope I’m wrong … I’m praying that I’m wrong. For our sake, I hope my prayers are answered …

William Ben Ownby was found today.

I’m happy to see that all turned out well in the end, and the boy was re-united with his family. Their prayers and most of yours’ and mine were all answered. You can check out the story at the link above.

I got woken up by an “emergency” that turned out to be a false alarm … I sat down and checked my RSS Feeds, because I couldn’t get back to sleep. Let me share a little something with you …

Back at the beginning of December, I posted an entry regarding how powerful the Human Spirit was after the death of James Kim. Thousands … I’d say millions of people supported his family after what happened.

Very recently, a 13-year-old boy went missing from a bus stop less than 0.3 miles away from his home. The story makes it onto Digg, and I go there to Digg the story up. The kind of comments I saw there were absolutely appalling.

Hardly anyone seems to give a crap about this kid, because “kids go missing everyday” … But, everyone was immensely supportive of James Kim’s family when he died. Well, guess what … People die everyday, too.

Just because you don’t care, doesn’t mean that there’s not a family in Missouri that is scared to death because their little boy is missing. Just because you don’t know what it feels like to have your child taken away from you by a kidnapper, doesn’t mean that you have the right to make such asinine comments about the fact that this story made it onto Digg. It takes one click … one freaking click to Digg that story up and get more people to see it. And whether or not you choose to believe it, the more people that do see this story, the better the chance that a life will be saved.

If you have even the smallest ounce of sympathy for this boy and his family, you will do one of two things. Digg this story up, or make sure that this picture is seen in as many places as possible.

If you don’t give a damn about this boy or his family, then do nothing. But, keep your mouth shut, because it’s people like you that have put the world in the sorry state that it’s in.

Is there a disease associated with sleeping too much? This is really getting old. That bed is just too comfortable for my own good …

I got about four hours of sleep and then woke up because it was too hot … After that, I couldn’t get back to sleep.

Insomnia sucks.

I’m sexy!

Take that, Sesshomaru!

I’ve come to the realization that I have a morbid curiosity with some elements of the past that I really shouldn’t be concerned with. And as I keep looking at these things, over and over again, it upsets me … when I’m in a position to where those things shouldn’t even matter.

I’m well aware of how things are now, and that’s all that should matter. Yet, I keep digging up old relics that aren’t even … accurate of the way things were. This is (obviously) not healthy behavior.

But, why does it upset me? The emotional state of mind that looking at these things puts me in can only be described as anger. Anger for the way things were, anger for how things went, and anger for the way these things ended. But, if they hadn’t ended at all, I wouldn’t be in the position I’m in now.

I believe, in this case, the past has no relevance to the future. Nothing that happened then will really have any effect on what is happening now or what will happen in the time to come. It’s hard to believe things turned out the way they did, though.

It’s time to move on and stop dwelling on these things.

For the record, I’m being incredibly vague for a reason. And to those of you who have been playing along at home for a while, I’m not referring to any of my past relationships, although now that I’ve re-read the above, it sounds a lot like something that would be about one or more of them.