Jeremy's Blog

I’ve come to the realization that I have a morbid curiosity with some elements of the past that I really shouldn’t be concerned with. And as I keep looking at these things, over and over again, it upsets me … when I’m in a position to where those things shouldn’t even matter.

I’m well aware of how things are now, and that’s all that should matter. Yet, I keep digging up old relics that aren’t even … accurate of the way things were. This is (obviously) not healthy behavior.

But, why does it upset me? The emotional state of mind that looking at these things puts me in can only be described as anger. Anger for the way things were, anger for how things went, and anger for the way these things ended. But, if they hadn’t ended at all, I wouldn’t be in the position I’m in now.

I believe, in this case, the past has no relevance to the future. Nothing that happened then will really have any effect on what is happening now or what will happen in the time to come. It’s hard to believe things turned out the way they did, though.

It’s time to move on and stop dwelling on these things.

For the record, I’m being incredibly vague for a reason. And to those of you who have been playing along at home for a while, I’m not referring to any of my past relationships, although now that I’ve re-read the above, it sounds a lot like something that would be about one or more of them.