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The previous entry was Ruzena reacting to my overreacting. Things really aren’t as bad as I made them out to be, to her. It’s just a simple matter of moving with the times. Personally, I really want to continue using PHP. If that’s not what happens, fine. I’ll move forward and do what I have to do to be successful.

I scared her a bit, because I was scared. I didn’t really know what to think about some of the things I was hearing and it freaked me out a little. Of course, I share everything with her, so it scared her too.

One of the things that makes me happy about her entry is the extra emphasis that was given to the fact that we are a team. She and I do things together and we’re always there for each other. We take care of each other and will continue to do so, as time goes on.

Of course, I also like that she’s thinking about the future and considering the family we hope to have and how all of this will have an effect on that, too. But, everything will be okay. Things really aren’t as bad as I thought. It’s just my state of depression, at the time, was amplifying things to make them seem a lot worse than they really were.

Thanks for being there and taking care of me, sweetheart. It really means a lot to me.

I got in from the office at about … I think it was sometime around 8:00 PM … this evening and ended up passing out after I finished eating my dinner. Woke up a few hours later, as you can tell. It was a nice nap, but it made me realize how much my body is screaming for relief from the crazy schedule we have at work, right now.

I took a moment to sit here and reflect on how much progress has been made and how much has been done since I came out here almost a year ago. I’m really, quite frankly, astounded with everything …

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So, Ruzena went to bed just a little while ago … And I have to say that today has probably been the best Valentine’s Day I’ve had in my life, thusfar. Everything went about as perfect as we could’ve expected it to. A lot of times more perfect. Her Valentine’s Day stuff arrived just as she was getting home from school, and mine showed up here later this evening. She’s such a wonderful girl … Very creative and even more thoughtful. She hand-made a Valentine’s Day card with a beautiful poem in it that was very meaningful. I also got a nifty little “message in a bottle” which was also very sweet and very meaningful.

But, what really made my day was the recording she sent me of her school’s talent show. We live so far apart, so being able to actually see my beautiful girl perform, even if it is a recording, is by far the best gift she could’ve ever given me. I love you, sweetie.

I won’t say what I got her. I’ll let her tell all of you, if she so pleases. But, it wasn’t near as creative as all of this.

Wishing everyone a Happy Valentine’s Day, and hoping some particularly grouchy people will realize that this is supposed to be a special day and a day of happiness. If you’re not having an especially good one, don’t ruin it for others. That’s just not fair, people.

… so does anyone know if FedEx will battle a snow storm to deliver something on the date it was specifically paid for to be delivered?

I’ve come back and re-hashed this entry over and over again several times now. I’m just re-writing it from scratch. This entry pretty much details my spiritual growth from when I claimed Atheism to my change to Agnosticism and finally my arriving where I am now, in Christianity. Religious subject matter contained within, so if you can’t handle that, please don’t bother. Inflammatory comments will be promptly removed.

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For those of you who are unaware, today is Ruzena’s birthday. So, since she can’t be here to announce it herself, I’ll do it for her.

Happy 18th, sweetie.

So, Ruzena’s computer is Broked … Expect her to be pretty much absent from everything until sometime next week.

This makes me sad, because I probably won’t get to talk to her hardly at all, until next week. Except during the usual phone times.

It’s amazing how easily twelve days can slip away without you hardly even noticing. Quite a lot has happened over the last twelve days … Some of which has left me with a sour taste in my mouth, especially as related to my job. But, I won’t go there. That horse has been beat to death, just in the past day, and I’m frankly sick of talking about it.

On the brighter side of things, the 18th was a very significant day. For reasons I won’t explain, I won’t tell you why, but there are a few people out there that know why this day is special to me.

As far as my personal life goes, I’ve been very happy. I have no reason not to be happy, personally. We’re still dealing with a lack of cash, but that issue should resolve itself, next month. Hopefully, anyway … If all the cards fall in our favor. I’m expecting two things to happen that will (quite literally) screw us, on the financial front, but I’m trying to be as optimistic as possible, as much as logic tells me that I’m about to get walked over again. But, we’ll manage. We always do (have to).

There are currently far too many variables. Being a person who works in logic all the time (programmer), I often relate life-issues to logical structures. At present time, there are too many variables, and not enough constants. At least there’s one constant I always know will be there, and I can’t thank her enough for all she’s done for me. I love you, sweetie.

I hope I’m wrong about all the variables. I’ve already formed an opinion or assumption about most of them, and I’m not liking what I’m seeing. But, I’ll work through it until I just can’t take the crap anymore, or I’m forcibly removed from the program. I just hope I’m wrong … I’m praying that I’m wrong. For our sake, I hope my prayers are answered …

William Ben Ownby was found today.

I’m happy to see that all turned out well in the end, and the boy was re-united with his family. Their prayers and most of yours’ and mine were all answered. You can check out the story at the link above.

I got woken up by an “emergency” that turned out to be a false alarm … I sat down and checked my RSS Feeds, because I couldn’t get back to sleep. Let me share a little something with you …

Back at the beginning of December, I posted an entry regarding how powerful the Human Spirit was after the death of James Kim. Thousands … I’d say millions of people supported his family after what happened.

Very recently, a 13-year-old boy went missing from a bus stop less than 0.3 miles away from his home. The story makes it onto Digg, and I go there to Digg the story up. The kind of comments I saw there were absolutely appalling.

Hardly anyone seems to give a crap about this kid, because “kids go missing everyday” … But, everyone was immensely supportive of James Kim’s family when he died. Well, guess what … People die everyday, too.

Just because you don’t care, doesn’t mean that there’s not a family in Missouri that is scared to death because their little boy is missing. Just because you don’t know what it feels like to have your child taken away from you by a kidnapper, doesn’t mean that you have the right to make such asinine comments about the fact that this story made it onto Digg. It takes one click … one freaking click to Digg that story up and get more people to see it. And whether or not you choose to believe it, the more people that do see this story, the better the chance that a life will be saved.

If you have even the smallest ounce of sympathy for this boy and his family, you will do one of two things. Digg this story up, or make sure that this picture is seen in as many places as possible.

If you don’t give a damn about this boy or his family, then do nothing. But, keep your mouth shut, because it’s people like you that have put the world in the sorry state that it’s in.